General Favorites

Hello! I’m back with another favorites post. Similar to the previous ones, this favorites post will be a mishmash of things across different categories, such as beauty, TV shows, YouTube channels, and so much more.


VICE Cosmetics x BT21 Velvet Liquid Lipstick in Shooky
As much as I love a good MLBB lip, it’s a bit of struggle to find the perfect one for my skin tone. While I do have some in my arsenal already, my try-and-buy tendencies have led me to this lipstick (and Johnrey’s review of the Vice Cosmetics x BT 21 collection– which you can watch here). While the product description says that it’s a “natural nude,” it’s more of a peachy nude with a brick-red undertone that doesn’t wash me out. The formula is a bit watery for a velvet liquid lipstick, but I’ll look past that since the color is so nice and the staying power is fairly decent. For its price point (Php 225), it performs really well, and the cute BT21 packaging adds up to its overall charm.


Call My Name by GOT7
Call me biased, but I honestly think that GOT7 produces amazing, heartfelt music that’s suited for almost every mood or phase in life. Call My Name, their latest EP, is a clear indication of their maturity as artists and as individuals. While I saw Spinning Top as an exploration (or a rumination) of their young adult lives and their artistry, this EP is a product of their first steps in pursuing the path of growth and maturity. The resulting sound is sleeker, more cohesive, and more deliberate, yet still maintains the variety that GOT7 is known for in terms of their sound. It’s a no-skip album that’s guaranteed to make you dance and feel things. After weeks of listening to the album on loop, my favorites are Run Away, You Calling My Name, and Thursday.

This performance of Thursday will keep me up at night, lol.

Did I find another boy group to stan? Perhaps I did. And Seventeen is /THAT/ group. Even though I’ve heard of them since 2017, it was only around August of this year when I started delving deeper into the group through their song, HIT. Since then, I’ve been listening to their songs on a regular basis. Similar to GOT7, they also have a very diverse discography, and they’re not afraid to mix up their concepts. Their group dynamics are also very fun to watch.

Aside from GOT7’s new album and Seventeen, I have also been enjoying Defsoul (JB of GOT7)’s mixtapes, SuperM’s debut EP, Jackson Wang’s new album, and george’s music.

Food and Home Life

My work sabbatical has given me the privilege to be a homebody. Even though I still spend a lot of my time on the computer, I’m slowly veering away from it by spending more time in the kitchen and doing household chores. My dad said that doing these things would help me develop several life skills, which will help me survive. So far, I think I’m doing a decent job at this home management thing. It’s not a one-time project where I can get things right on the first try; it’s a continuous process of trial, error, and learning. This is very evident with my ventures in the kitchen, where I try to practice my cooking skills (or lack thereof). So far, I have cooked one-pot chicken alfredo pasta and fried rice with egg and various meats. I need to make room for more variety in my cooking, though!


I have a confession to make: the last TV show that I completed was the first season of Queer Eye. Since then, my busy schedule (and poor time management skills) have prevented me from committing to a show that I’m interested to watch and complete.

Now that I have a lot of free time in my hands, I finally finished the first season of Modern Love! As someone who loved the column and accompanying podcast, I found most of the episodes to be quite entertaining and heartwarming on different levels. However, I do think that the first three episodes and the season finale were the best episodes from the first season.

Another TV show that I am currently enjoying at the moment is He Is Psychometric. It took me several attempts (and delays) before I got to fully immerse myself in the show, but the delayed gratification was all worth it. I’ll write a separate TV Notes post on this drama once I finish the series.

YouTube Channels
To be honest, YouTube has become my main source of entertainment and inspiration for the past few years. In my years of binge-watching YouTube videos (for fun and information!), here are two YouTube personalities that are currently inspiring me to live my life better:

1. Rachel Nguyen/That’s Chic

Rachel Nguyen has become one of my favorite YouTube personalities/inspirations in the past few years. I describe her work as raw but dreamy, yet full of introspection and intention. She inspires me to live my life more intentionally and be more present for myself. I was lucky to enter her Slack group, and her advice about trusting your intuition, being more intentional, and setting boundaries really resonated with me.

2. Ingrid Nilsen

I grew up watching Ingrid Nilsen on and off on YouTube, and it’s so amazing to see her growth as an individual and creative. Just like Rachel, her videos are also heartfelt and full of introspection. She’s also very relatable and outspoken about her causes. For the latter, she presents them with a certain level of ease and comfort, which makes it easier to grasp the concepts behind them.

Honorable Mention: The Bon Appetit YouTube channel

I am a Claire Saffitz stan, tbh.

When I first learned about the recent buzz about the Bon Appetit YouTube channel, I did not get it. However, when I did a late-night binge of Gourmet Makes (two episodes to be exact), I finally understood the hype behind it. The videos are fun, informative, and full of interesting personalities. I don’t really have much to say, but I encourage you to subscribe to the channel and do a binge-watch session in your free time. Perhaps the Bon Appetit channel reignited my love for cooking and food.

Aside from watching videos from the personalities I’ve mentioned, I have been watching more videos about astrology, tarot, and spirituality. My favorite channels related to those matters are Little Light of Mind, Stargirl the Practical Witch, The Tarot Priest, Universal Intuition, and Manna by Adalina Bonn. Outside of YouTube though, my favorite tarot practitioner is Jessica Dore. She fuses tarot with concepts in psychotherapy, which gives a more actionable take in her tarot readings.

And that’s a rundown of my current favorites! I’ve said a mouthful, but I really enjoyed them for the past few months. Let me know what you’ve been liking!

Life Lately: Rest and Relaxation (Or Is It?)

Hello there. As you can tell, I’m currently on a work sabbatical. Unlike my previous one, which was mostly fueled by negative thoughts and feelings, this one feels a little more positive. Maybe it’s because I have rest and relaxation in mind for this break, rather than pressuring myself to get back on my feet and move forward after a perceived failure or something. Also, I’ve gained more friends and I’ve been making active efforts to reach out to them when I’m in distress, which makes me feel less isolated and lonely.

Although my keywords for this sabbatical are “rest and relaxation,” I still try to make it as productive as possible. I have a little list in my journal containing the things that I want to do for this break, such as seeing a counselor, reading some books, and the like. However, I don’t beat myself up for it anymore if I don’t get to be as productive as I want to be. I can be very hard on myself, and doing so just puts me in a place of self-loathing and insecurity. By changing my approach, it opens me up to a place of healing and growth. I just want to enjoy things as they are and be more present.

On the topic of enjoying things and being in the present moment, I recently felt that way during the GOT7 concert last week. It was the first time in a long time where I didn’t think about work or something related to it. There was also that feeling of lightness that came with it, where I didn’t feel guilt-tripped about not doing work or taking things easy with work during weekends. I just felt present and alive, enjoying the GOT7 concert with my fellow fans. I guess there’s a purpose for the poor signal at MOA arena during concerts that’s worth appreciating.

As I type this, I realize that this is me unpacking my attitude towards my attention problems (thanks ADHD), rejection sensitivity, perfectionism, and the overcompensation that I put myself through because of my perceived failures. Who knew that the process of doing household chores would be so cathartic (aside from learning vital life skills, of course)? Okay, I need to fix my room.

My #KeepSpinningInManila Experience

The moment I stepped out of my dad’s car, I immediately knew that this night was going to be one of my most treasured moments in life.

As I have said countless times, GOT7 is one of my favorite K-pop groups. Although my fan experience with GOT7 is pretty chill, I couldn’t pass up on the opportunity to see them live for the second time around.

My first GOT7 concert experience was during the New York stop of the Eyes on You tour. It was my favorite concert back in 2018, and I couldn’t shut up about it for months. When GOT7 announced the tour stops for their Keep Spinning world tour earlier this year, I was so shocked and excited to see Manila was included as one of the stops. The Manila show meant several things: (1) I’m going to see GOT7 in my home turf for the first time; (2) I’m going to meet my fellow Pinoy ahgases; (3) I’m going to see GOT7 take on Pinoy stuff! Will Bambam sing a Tagalog song? Did Jackson brush up on his Tagalog vocabulary? Will they share something Pinoy-related? Those were the questions that came into my mind before the show. I guess it just hits you differently when you get to see your favorite musical act in your own country.

The weeks leading up to the concert were stressful and chaotic. Aside from the stress of ticketing day and other concert-related matters, I was also going through a lot of stress from real-life stuff. Fortunately, the stress and panic from concert preps evolved into inspiration in coping with the turbulence going on in my personal life at that time. At the back of my mind, the concert would be the perfect opportunity to release my pent-up feelings and be in the present moment.

Fast-forward to the day of concert. I arrived at the concert venue initially feeling calm and collected, but I started to loosen up the moment I stepped foot inside the arena. It started with the soundcheck, where I heard the boys perform “Come On,” “Page,” and “Go Higher”. Hearing these songs hyped me up and fueled my excitement for the show.

The show itself was a masterpiece. The concert started with “Eclipse,” which was one of their heavier, more heartfelt songs. The first part of the show was pretty dark and intense, yet also very enjoyable. The first ments lightened things up though, where the boys hyped us up for the rest of the night and expressed their excitement about performing their full first concert in Manila. As the concert went on, the show started to become more lighthearted and fun, with the boys trying to say “SANA ALL” and “WALANG UUWI” during various parts of their ments. Also, the fans (including myself) chanted “SAMPLE SAMPLE!” which apparently confused Jackson and Bambam. Youngjae and Jinyoung spoke some Tagalog in their final ments, which were touching. Throughout the show, I was jumping, dancing, singing, taking pictures, and screaming my feelings out with the people in my section. (Case in point: I kept shouting, “GO BEST FRIEND” whenever its JB’s turn, lol). The performances that I enjoyed the most were “Come On,” “Page,” “1 Degree,” “Just Right,” “Lullaby,” “Look,” and the solo/unit stages. When it comes to biases and bias wreckers though, I never thought that I would be bias-wrecked in this concert. I entered MOA Arena as a Jinyoung stan, and left the concert venue completely bias-wrecked by JB (even though he’s my bias). God, the power of Best Friend.

Everyone had so much fun, and everything was so beautiful. You can really feel the love that the fans gave for the boys, and you can really feel a strong sense of community among the fans. Although I’ve repeatedly mentioned that I love the boys, I never expected to love them even more after this show. GOT7’s Manila show was nothing short of unforgettable, and it reminded me of how grateful I am to be a fan of such an amazing group.

Performance Anxiety

Around late last year, my friend Roxy and I were discussing about our struggles at our old workplace. I shared to her my struggles with adjusting to various situations and environments, and the coping processes I use to deal with this struggle. As much as I want to assert who I am and the space that I want to occupy, not a lot of people will understand and appreciate who I am as a person. Most of the time, in order to appease many people (and do well), I have to conform to their ways, to the extent that I lose myself and feel negatively towards myself. I want to embrace the fact that I am kind, hardworking, and capable (as it is), but the voices around me say that I have to do x and y for them to prove that I am the things aforementioned. In addition, there’s always that nagging thought that I always have to prove others wrong whenever I take on something, be it a hobby or a work opportunity. Can I just learn and master that hobby or work opportunity out of genuine desire? Out of a genuine desire to grow and not just comply out of a need to achieve a career-related KPI? I honestly think that these lines blur a lot. There are times where I feel like I’m gaining skills not for my personal improvement, but to prove to institutions and other people that, “HEY! I’m capable! I’m good!” Or, “You said that I deserved to get fired? Well, my work says otherwise.” It’s frustrating, and it adds up to a lot of the anxieties that I feel.

I guess I’m just being hard on myself. I need to be kind to myself more, especially during stressful times. My job does not define who I am.



2018, A Retrospective

2018 is coming to a close. It has been one hell of a year, with amazing highs and some pretty deep lows. This year has also a been of discovery, which opened me up to a lot of personal breakthroughs. Speaking of breakthroughs, I remember talking to a former colleague of mine in the Human Resources department at my old employer, where she told me about how our individual struggles build us and make us stronger over time. She was right. Over the past year,  I’ve learned how to reframe these struggles as building blocks for growth. Here is a long, detailed account of my 2018, in case you are interested.

2018 started out quite negatively. It was negative, in a sense that a lot of self-loathing and unpleasant self-talk has manifested in my work life. After almost five months in public relations, I got reassigned to our agency’s digital team. When I first learned that I was going to join the digital team, I was close to losing it. Not to mention, the new assignment reopened work-related traumas from my first job, to the extent that I could feel my demon of an ex-boss hurling invectives at me in my head whenever I commit mistakes at work. These apprehensions and fears heightened the performance anxiety that I have due to my ADHD. This left me feeling lonely and distrustful towards people, because I was anxious of screwing up and being treated like I was incompetent. I wanted to prove to myself (and to others) that I can get regularized. I can keep a job. I can stay in one.  I did what I could to stay afloat and grow into the role, even if it had some trade-offs on my social and emotional health. I was that way for a couple of months, and now, I’ve been doing my best to untangle and unlearn the habits that I’ve developed from this experience.

Fast forward to the last week of May, and I got some pleasant work-related news: I got regularized! This was a HUGE deal for me. When I received my regularization letter, a huge weight was taken off my shoulders. It meant that I wasn’t as bad as I thought I was, and that I could unleash my potential. Since then, I’ve learned how to ask for help and believe in the people who have helped me a lot with work. Not to mention, the office environment has been a lot less hostile, which made it easier for me to let my guard down.

I’ve said at least close to 500 words about my work life here, but to sum it up, it has been quite a journey. I still have a long way to go in terms of fully embracing and loving what I do for work, but I’m grateful that my job is an intersection of what I like to do and what the job market needs. More so, I am grateful for my boss, my teammates, and several other colleagues who have cheered me on and encouraged me to be better at what I do. Their support has helped me move forward and work through the past traumas and apprehensions that I had towards digital work, among many other things.

Now that the work stuff is out of the way, this year has also been a huge one for me as a K-pop fangirl. In January, I started getting into NCT, and things have snowballed from there. I’ve grown to love NCT (and K-pop) so much that it opened me up to new friends and a shared love for the group. (Also: I have accumulated a boatload of NCT merch this year)

Aside from getting into NCT, I also watched two K-pop concerts this year, which are Super Show 7 and the Eyes on You tour. These two concerts were spur-of-the-moment decisions, and they were really fun shows! I’ve already shared some bits about them here, so I don’t need to say much.

Beyond work and fangirling, this year has also a been a year of self-discovery and lessons. I’ve learned (and I’m still learning) a lot of things about myself this year. The first personal truth that I have come to terms with is that I’ve been struggling with thoughts on self-harm and self-loathing. I’ve denied it for years, and now that I’ve acknowledged it, I’m working on taking better care of myself. I still find it ironic that I wrote this bit with an injured knee (but it’s getting better, so yay!).

The second thing that I discovered about myself is that I’m actually more open to dating anyone. Although I’m still attracted to men, I’ve become more receptive towards liking other genders. I may not have any experience with dating right now, but I’m sure that I will love whoever I want to love if the opportunity comes.

The third thing that I’ve accepted about myself is that I am quite introverted and weird, and that’s perfectly okay. I’ve always been the weird, awkward girl in my friend groups, and socializing has been quite a struggle for me. Before, I would usually try my best to fit in and flex my personality to be liked by everyone, but now, I’ve come to terms that I’m not for everybody. However, this also means that I shouldn’t be a judgmental asshole, and that I have to exercise kindness and patience to everyone.

On top of these lessons and discoveries, there were other amazing things that have happened this year: there’s the New York trip, I saw Taylor Swift live, I got more ear piercings, wore more cozy pants and striped shirts, bought more makeup, met new people, and drank good coffee.

Overall, 2018 has been really good to me. I’m grateful for the people, the opportunities, and the experiences that came my way, and I will treasure them forever. I honestly believe that this was the year where I started getting things going for me, and I hope that momentum goes on in 2019. I hope 2019 is a lot better and a lot more exciting for everyone. I wish everyone the best.



Turning 24, And Making A Few Lifestyle Changes

If it isn’t obvious yet, I am already twenty-four years old (I turned 24 last August 12, by the way). As usual, I am very late to the party when it comes to processing these things.

Needless to say, birthdays are both strange and normal occurrences in one’s life. Yes, there’s the obvious fact that I’m a year older now, but there’s also that feeling that I’m not as old as what my birth certificate tells me to be.

But speaking of getting older and acting my age, I have been on a kick lately with a bunch of lifestyle changes. One of which is coming to work on time or coming to work earlier than what I’m accustomed to.  I’m almost always late to work, and it’s not good for my finances and productivity.

So far, the most feasible process that I came up with to rectify this problem is this: set multiple alarms, wake up at 5:00 am, leave the house at 7:20-7:30, and hitch with my dad on the way to work at least thrice a week. If he’s unavailable, I make it an effort to leave the house earlier and walk to the UV express station. I’m lucky that I work in the same city as my dad’s, so it’s easier for us. Not to mention, I get to save at least 150-200 Php a week with this arrangement. However, I’m still figuring out how I’ll go about this while my dad is out of town.

I’ve been coming to work on time for two weeks straight, and I’m doing my best to keep at it. It’s been good for my productivity and my bank account too. I don’t feel hurried or stressed when it comes to work, and I get to pace my workflow better now (with much credit to this Knock Knock to-do list notepad, a timer, and teamwork).

Another lifestyle change I’ve been gradually working on is developing an exercise routine and making slight alterations to my diet. I love junk food, pasta, and meat, but it’s making me feel bloated more frequently these days (I also struggle with buttoning up my pants— it’s THAT bad). Not to mention, my “exercise routine” has been limited to daily walks from my office to the UV express station in Park Square, lol. Speaking of exercise, I jogged around my village and ended up almost passing out. Perhaps I need to build endurance first, like how I would do it in the workplace. When it comes to eating, I’ll gradually tweak my servings and not order 2 pasta meals in one go.

I’m bad with consistency, and I hope that this approach will help me become more consistent with these changes. Wish me luck.


A Bunch of Random Facts About Me

I’ve been blogging for years, and while I have an “about me” page, I feel like I haven’t really introduced or shared something about myself in a random, almost unfiltered manner. Here are some facts about myself, from the really obvious ones, to the not-so obvious ones:

  1. I have spent most of my life as a South girl— I have lived in Paranaque since 2000.
  2. My MBTI personality type has changed for around four times already. When I was younger, I was an ENTP/ENFP, and now, I currently see myself as an INFP/INTP. This change in personality can be attributed to a bunch of not-so pleasant circumstances in my life over the past few years.
  3. I am on k-pop stan twitter (and I am very active there!).
  4. My alcohol tolerance is dependent on the amount of food I consume. If I eat too little or too much, my alcohol tolerance dips.
  5. Speaking of alcohol, I love vodka sprite and San Miguel Pale Pilsen.
  6. I am almost always in striped shirts! I have around ten in my closet. (Actually, I have lost count of them)
  7. I initially decided to pursue a career in advertising because of a random perk: I’m not obliged to wear corporate attire every day! Nowadays, I see advertising as a career that intersects my passions and needs.
  8. I have tried several roles and tasks (social media, copywriting, accounts, events) in my two-year career in advertising (well it’s three technically, but that’s for another story), but I always go back to writing. Among the forms of writing I’ve done for work though, I find social media copywriting and online content writing to be my specialties.
  9. I wore braces for three years, and retainers for another three (unfortunately, I lost my retainers in my freshman year of college).
  10.  I like to cut my own hair! It’s a fun (and weird) way for me to gauge my hair’s texture and versatility.
  11. When I was younger, I wanted to become a magazine editor. This dream is still something that I hold on to, even if I’m currently working in advertising. But then again, advertising opens you up to new experiences.
  12. I grew up quite sheltered. Growing up, I never got invited to sleepovers, and other normal teenager-y things. My dad was quite strict with me back in grade school and high school, so a huge chunk of my life revolved around school, a few friends, and at home. Not to mention, I only learned how to commute to longer distances during my freshman year in college. I think I only started to come out of my sheltered shell when I entered my current job. It’s still an ongoing process, and I would like to be more well-rounded and socially adept in life.
  13. I would like to think that my sense of humor is highly influenced by Twitter and Tumblr meme culture. I tend to speak in meme language whenever I tweet, lol.
  14.  I once had a phase in college where I did film photography. I miss it though. I used to post my film photos here!
  15. My ultimate bias groups are GOT7, Super Junior, and NCT. I usually talk about them on my fan account on Twitter, lol.

Life Update: December 2017-March 2018

Hello there! Checking in with another blog post. I was supposed to publish a year-end reflection of sorts, but I think I am way too late to the game already. But to put 2017 in a nutshell, I would say that 2017 has been a little kinder to me than 2016. On the other hand, 2018 so far has been a mixed bag, but I would rather dwell on the more positive things rather than the missteps I encountered.

Now that the first quarter of 2018 is about to somewhat end, let me share some bits and pieces of the things that have happened over the last four months:

  • Last December, I went to Taiwan with my dad. We were supposed to go to Taiwan as a complete family, but my brother backed out at the last minute. A good chunk of our stay there consisted of trips to museums and cultural spots, while the rest was for walking, shopping, and navigating Taiwan (Taipei mostly). Also, did I mention that Taipei has a decent selection of K-pop merchandise? I was able to get a copy of Super Junior’s latest album, as well as a few magazines there. I want to go there again, and see the places that I haven’t been to—such as Jiufen!

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Day 2: A visit to Taipei 101

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  • At the start of January, I got reassigned to our company’s digital department. After experiencing PR work, I discovered that I was more comfortable and adept in fulfilling my tasks and responsibilities related to digital. At the moment, I am focused on content development and setting up of Facebook ads. It seems easy, but there are challenges along the way. So far, I like what I am doing, and I feel grateful for this opportunity. The way I see it now, my current position is an intersection of all my work experiences, as well as my passion for writing. I am excited to continue to improve and grow in this field, and finally move forward from my trauma with my first digital-related job.
  • Last Valentine’s Day, I had a very random encounter with the Korean actor Ji Soo at Greenbelt 4. At that time, I just came from the ladies’ bathroom at Greenbelt 4, and then I saw a bunch of girls in a huddle outside of the Gucci boutique. I asked what’s happening, and they were like, “Si Ji Soo ba ‘yan? Yung sa Strong Woman?” (“Is that Ji Soo, from Strong Woman Do Bong Soon?”). Unsurprisingly, I ended up fangirling with them and we were right that Ji Soo was indeed right before our very eyes at that Gucci boutique.
  • When it comes to cultural consumption, I was able to watch three movies– Lady Bird, Call Me By Your Name, and Black Panther. I really liked all three– CMBYN was gripping, Lady Bird was relatable, and Black Panther was exciting and groundbreaking.
  • I also went to Art Fair Philippines last week. I’ve been going there since 2015, and it continues to be bigger and more exciting every time I go there. While I initially had gripes with its steep entrance fee, visiting each exhibit was worth it. My favorites were Everyday Impunity (which was done in collaboration with Erwin Romulo), the photography exhibits (Neal Oshima and Weegee’s in particular), and Yeo Kaa’s “Sorry, Sorry, Sorry.”

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A hearty laugh / Weegee

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  • K-pop favorites? I have been listening to a lot of NCT lately. I’m having a bit of a NCT phase at the moment, just like how I did with Super Junior last December/early January. But so far, I’ve been enjoying NCT, Super Junior, SHINee, and GOT7’s music. I’m excited for GOT7 and NCT’s comebacks this week!

There you go! Those are just some of the life updates I have shared over the past four months. I still have a whole year ahead, which also means that I still have the whole year to pick up my pace as a writer again. Apologies for the very rushed entry. I just needed to get some things out of my head.

Notes: Money, Adulting, and More

I broke my phone’s LCD screen yesterday. I was walking on the way to SM Makati, until I dropped my phone near National Bookstore. My phone suffered a pretty massive fall, even if I had a tempered glass coating installed on it. When I went to a phone repair shop to get my tempered glass replaced, I learned that my phone screen broke with it too. Desperate and afraid, I immediately asked if I can have my phone repaired. Things did not go too well at that shop, so I moved to another store to get it fixed for a more reasonable price.


Luckily, I found a place that offered phone repairs for a decent price. I got my LCD fixed for around 2.5K, which was way cheaper than the price that my dad paid for when he had my phone fixed for the first time. Despite getting a good deal, I felt so stupid for being clumsy and distracted when it comes to handling things. I could’ve used the money that I spent for fixing my phone for other things.


This incident made me realize three important things. First, I am incredibly lucky to have a job that I love and that lets me earn in the process. Returning to the workforce reminded me that I must not take things for granted this time. Second, I need to be more careful. I’m very clumsy when it comes to handling valuables, and I need to be more mindful in taking care of them. Lastly, I need to be wiser with my money. I’m such a horrible spender, and I need to learn how to budget my salary, according to my needs (load, food, transportation, household contributions). I should get a budgeting app to track my expenses or something.


Now that I’ve unpacked all these realizations, what’s next for me? I’m going to embrace better habits. I will track and budget my expenses, take care of my things, and embrace the grind of work. It’s hard, but I know I’ll master it.