2012

So, this is 2012, in bullet points:

• I fell in love with the world of advertising. I know it’s an uncharted territory, but I must say, it’s a crazy, beautiful world. There’s still a long way to go, though.
• I became too pushy, just so I can do things my way. I stopped listening to the people that mattered to me the most, and I started doing things my way—— even if it isn’t right. It burned me a lot.
• I will always be thankful for my family and my friends, since they’ve stood by me.
• I’ve gone towards YOLO territory, and as much as I actually despise it, I can’t seem to avoid it. (This is a bad case of cognitive dissonance)
• There’s too much cognitive dissonance going on in my life. I should get rid of of the mismatched attitudes and behaviors that I have. Slowly but surely.
• So far, my Christmas break schedule is like this: Wake up, surf the internet, sleep, and take care of the puppies. Repeat cycle.
• I shouldn’t waste my time pleasing everyone. As much as I would like to think that I am such a terrible person, and I should pay back by pleasing everyone to make up for how terrible I am, I think it’s highly impossible to do that.
• An epiphany: For the past few years now, I’ve been living by trial and error. Trying a lot of things, just to see what works for me. And I still haven’t figured out what works for me, to get my life into shape.
• A  terrible argument (or a fight, even) humbles you and puts you in your place. I learned that the hard way.
• Another thing that I always forget: Time management.
• Too much caffeine leaves you a nervous wreck.
• I will forever be thankful for friends who constantly push me to be better, even if I am somewhat allergic to change.
• Being of legal age is not always a good excuse to be drunk and go apeshit over everything. .
• As much as I would like to say (and think) that I’ve been a completely terrible person all year, there are still people that still believe in me, and for that, I’m thankful.
• I shouldn’t be jealous about my friends who are achieving a lot more than I do….or even trying to match with their success. I should really start on focusing on the things that I want to achieve with my life. I can only work with the things that God has given me, and I should maximize it. Instead of being jealous with my friends, I should be happy for them. I have awesome friends, and I shouldn’t see everything as some sort of competition whenever I am with them.

Stress

  For the past few weeks, a lot of things have been bothering me. Truth be told, I don’t really know how to deal with stressful situations ——- despite my school physician telling me that I’ve been handling stress pretty well. For the longest time, I’ve been allowing myself to be exposed in stressful situations, distracting myself from pursuing the things that I really want to do with my life. I’ve also been channeling my energies with trivial things that have nothing to do with my goals, since I wanted to try and do everything at the same time (which I can’t do). 

   In spite of all these things, I realized one thing: I’ve been living by trial and error for the past few years. I try to do everything, and so far, nothing really significant has happened to me. I also feel that I’ve been ungrateful for a lot of things for the past few years now, and I need to step back and go back to the things that really matter.